i RoCk mY wOrLd =) hey people.. howwwwww is LIFE!!!! haha its ok here... STRESSFUL.. but yea.. like k.. thursday was just NOT a good day for me.. i wanted to just break downand cry.. so then im jus... talking to ree and shes all.. imcoming, so of course.. shes the one person i need right now.. so.. friday she comes.. and we watched the girls.. i held kira the whoooollle time... and just played with her.. she LOVES me.. i cant wait till i have kids.. k well i can wait, but its like... i cant wait to be done with this lifestyle.. just to be able to have a husband.. and be madly in love.. and just have my kids.. imma be the best mom:) well.. then we went to pats.. and just chilled.. had fun.. came home and well, bugged nic. then we talked till like 5... and i just, wow.. i told her SO much.. we talked bout how we both fall so easily for guys.. n we figured out that the main reason i fell for nic.. was because i missed scott.. and i dunno.. u gotta admit they kind of are alike.. scott, is a lot alot funnier.. SO much funnier... and hes i dunno.. everything:\ and im not saying i have no feeling for nic.. because i do.. a lot.. id unno if i love him... i think when someone tells me they love me.. i automatically think.. i have to love them to.. so i tell them i do:\ like with mikey and brandon... i liked mikey.. a lot.. SO freaking much... but it was like... i tried to make it so i loved him.. i just cant not... be alone.. and with brandon.. he still means a lot to me... but yea.. i dunno i just have relationship issues.. but to tell u the truth.. id erase every guy.. ever.. COMPLETELY out of my life.. to just have scott.. anyways.. she left today at 11.. sucks but im glad we got to have a sleep over! so... then i went to napolean dynamite with nichole..maddy..and brit.. it was ok i guess not as funny as i thought it would be.. but yea, so and.. i started talkin to these guys.. and they were from cali.. two were pretty hot.. but yea.. then we got pretzles! and walked around.. went in the pregnant store, just effed around hahaa..and yea.. we were kinda quite and i was jus thinkin.. we useta hang out every weekend... then bam.. i see kaylyn.. yea so i like yell her name and we all go give her a hug n stuff.. n it was weird... us 5 together.... and it wasnt normal:\ it sucks..*sigh* but oh well.. i love them all a lot. well.. I LOVE YOU ALL! muah

yay!!! so.. last night freaking....wooo... k nichole was over... and we were going to go to the movie with maddi brit and frankie..but we ended up not going! (thank god) so freaking.. me nicki and my mom go get a ice cream...come back.. and all of us are down in my moms room talkin n stuff.. then someone knocks.. so me and nick run upstairs.. and i open the door.. look out there.. and i hear "OH MY GOD!" all girly.. first thing that came to my head was.. hey thats the twins! john and kerry.. but then thomas runs out and i just start dying... then hes like DEVINNNNNN! so devin comes..and we were just talkin for a lil bit... then my mom yelled up stairs for me.. and then boys were all HEY VONNNNNNNNY! so.. shes all.. do u guys wanna have prayer with us... haha so.. thomas said the prayer :D then.. after they were talkin to my mom about her cruise.. and stuff like that.. then we started talkin bout theyre school.. new ames.. and like how you get ur associates degree by the time you graduate.. and like.. u dont have homework.. and it only costs 30 bucks to register so my mom was like desssss how bout you go? im like no.. and the boys were just saying stuff to try and get her mind like set on it.. haha then im like do you guys wanna watch a movie.. theyre like yeaaaa so.. we go up stairs.. then britney comes in and is like lets go to a movie! so we looked up times.. we ended up just goin to blockbuster and gettin movies. they make me laugh so hard... so i like devin... A LOT... so much you people reading this :( so freaking... then we come back to our house and watch the movie.. and thomas was sittn by me.. and nicki was sitten on my other side.. and thomas kept put his legs on mine n stuff.. n like i dunno i was thinkin.. n i was like hmm i kinda like thom too.. but we're more like... best friends.. so movie gets over... we watched olympics for a while.. and oprah.. lmao it was so funny :) and jus me n dev were watchin infomercials together.. :) so they left at like... err 2-3 i dont really know.. i love those boys so much.. theyre so cute.. and its like... when im with em... this is corny but i dont wanna do stupid shit.. like drugs n stuff.. n well.. yea i like devin a lot.. so after they left i just talked to nichole bout it.. n im like nicki.. it sucks.. i like him so much but i dont think i even have a chance.. n shes like WHATTTT shut up i think you have such a big freakin chance.. so i dunno... :( school: sucks.. ahha k i go to bonneville right.. me and nicki have EVERY class together... and like no other friends... cuz like.. k susan, chels, kaylyn, maddi, brit and manda left... it sucks.. our BEST friends left.. i had SO many friends in 8-9 plus mike.. like doesnt even like us anymore :( i miss him lots.. so.. im thinkin bout goin to new ames *gasp* I KNOW! crazy huh... seeing those boys... now i wanna go there.. but then, if they leave me.. itll SUCK cuz i guess theyre thinkin bout goin to bonneville... liek they told me maybe.. but then later thom was like my mom wouldnt let me just leave.. so.. i dont even think dev would leave if thom didnt.. i dunno ill look more into it. im so getting a car in june!!! down payment here i come! hahah! me and my mom alright talked bout it...plus if she starts to be a foster parent.. ill make a lot more money.. cuz ill watch them and shell pay me! she said and i quote "ill pay you bank!" so yay! family: CLIFFS NOT DROPPING OUT!!!!!!!! YESSSSSSSSUH! last night nicki and him talked.. it was cute :) i swear theyre gonna get married... um.. so.. we're movin to my g'pas in bout 4 weeks.. or less then hes moving to tooele.. and yea.. hes selling the house after we move.. so i dunno im not way happy... but yea when we go.. we'll have to switch wards... and thats the ONLY one ill go t church at... im serious if i dont go there... i dont go. haha oh yea, me and bron are talking again :) oh i got paid 40 bucks from bren.. so and my moms given me 20 more.. so IM GETTING MY FILM DEVELOPED!!!!!!!!! hhaa yay! boys: well...joshua is done and over with :) im not really sad bout it.. oh well right? um.. nic hes cute and i love him. but theres doubts in that whole relationship.. and last but not least AT ALL devin.. :) haha im not in love with him.. but i could be. and i want to be! i freakin wanna marry him.. :D haha NOVELS! i never write in here... so i gotta make em long for you ppl.. k I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH! muah! dest

so.. for the past 3 days ive wanted to die more than i have ever wanted to...right? last night in particular.. got offline.. felt like crap... went in my room... cried.. wrote some things... and of COURSE... today had to get worse..heres my story... so yesterday we go shopping right? we go to old navy.. and target.. my mom bought shane(her husband) some clothes... so last night i was like.. im gonna wash mine.. wheres shanes? shes like..lets just wait until tomorrow.. after he knows what he wants... so.. i call my mom today when i wake up (1:30 pm) and ask her if shes talked to shane.. and if he had tired his clothes... she tells me to just take the tags off and wash them... so what do i do? exactly what she said.. so he comes in.. and with his fucking "controlling attitude" and well.. im on the phone with nichole... and well.. heres our convo Shane: did you wash my clothes Me: yea Shane: I DIDNT EVEN TRY THEM ON Me: um, my mom told me to..so i did Shane: I DONT EVEN KNOW IF I WANT THEM he kind of walks away.. Me: MY MOM TOLD ME TO SO I DID!!!!!! Shane: shut up.. dont get that attitude with me Me: dont tell me to shut up, and your the one with the attitude.. i didnt do anything i just did what my freakin mom told me to do sounds kind of dumb right? well, me and shane NEVER talk.. and well, the thing that pisses me off most... is that hes gonna go tell my mom right? cuz hes freaking immature... and she'll get pissed off at MEEEEEEE! just for raising my voice or whatever... im not gonna listen to SHIT shane says.. hes not my fucking dad. nor does he have any say in shit i do. i did what my mom told me to do, so i shouldnt get in trouble... right? well... i will.. doesnt even freakin... matter whatever i say... im SOOOOOOOO frustrated... cuz i didnt do freaking shit and im going to get introuble... ughhhhh! i seriously wish i wasnt here... im going crazy people... like i have not cried this much in so long.. ugh....

HEY GUYS!!!!!!!! whats up whats up!?! not much here.. chillen.. so i just got off the phone with nicki! and we of course were talkin bout school, how its starting soon as HELL! "are you nervous" seems to be the question everyone is askin.. no i am not nervous! lol silly ppl.. i just dont want to go! plus.. i was such a btich last year, that i lost SOOOO many friends, cause of all the damn drama.. and well.. susan, chels, kaylyn, manda, AND maddi AND brit! and freaking THOMAS AND DEVIN!!! :( arent even goin to bhs... so it SUCKS! its jus.. me and nicki! but yea.. i gotta go get my schedule and all that good shit! haha i forgot like, EVERY class i took, i just remember that theyre HARD! but nichole told me some classes i took.. haha humanities.. child dev. sports marketing(thats fun!!!) and er... i cant member what else she said.. and yea, course i have math and english... but yea lol i kinda like the whole.. busy feeling.. so im glad ill have school, i wont have time for ANYTHING! not for ANY of you! muahaha ;D ok ok... ill be chillen home 24-7 lol im excited tho... i getta get MORE clothes.. and shoes! so.. family.. we're all doing good.. course all the lil kids are! jeb stayed here all weekend, we had hella fun.. hes so cute! bronson comes on saturday *jumps up n down* im SOOOOOOOOOO fuckin excited! u dont even know! theres only 2 peopled oin bad.. james.. he got a DUI for marijuana.. got his car impounded.. and he has a 3,000 dollar fine! so.. hes planning on moving up here with us soon.. pat, well.. hes just silly.. i know hes not happy with his life, i dunno why he does the hsit he does (yes i have done many of the same shit, but ive changed.. ) what i dont get is.. he knows he needs to change, and he wants to.. and knows he can.. but doesnt? so.. ive heard of this letter he wrote.. while he was on cocaine for 2 days straight.. and he hadnt slept.. it was written on a bunch of envelops.. and it was to his future kids.. and how he wishes he could change so bad, and talks about how he did porn.. and how he just felt like shit the whole time.. and it just gives u a bad feeling... then it says how he wishes he wouldnt have gotten danni pregnant, because then she had the abortion.. and he feels responsible for killing his baby..(when he didnt want her to have an abortion) then.. it talks bout how he wishes he wouldnt have dropped out of highschool.. and like everytime in the letter when he cant spell something he puts "i dunno how to spell it.. because i didnt finish highschool" and he jus... talks about how he hates his life.. it just makes me sad.. :( cuz pats like one of the coolest people ever.. and would do anything for anyone.. pecially us girls.. and im so afraid ill just get a call sayin hes dead.. i use to have the biggest fear of that with zack.. but thats gotten better, he doesnt do as MUCH stupid shit.. but yea.. so joshua... wow when i talk to him its like.. my heart gets all... happy and warm :) hes one of the most perfect ppl i have ever met... if i could just go there.. and stay there... i would.. right now.. id leave everything for him.. i love him so much!.. wowie! but i seriously.. when i talk to him... i just.. get speechless:\ i dont know why... lol AHHHHHHHH i love joshuaaaaaaaaa! lol.. imma go there next summer... and be there for a while... and just.. be with him :) then... right when i graduate.. i just wanna go live with him.. and marry him.. n have his kids.. haha i love joshua lewis shepherd more than anything :p k well.. im gonna go.. i love you all so so so so so much!!!!!!!!!!!!! muah! dest/brook

i told naomi since i dont have her on my shoutouts.. id give her a special shout lol.. (if anybody asks me to do the same witht hem, u will be stabbed 4 times :D )

naomi, why hello mami lol whats up gangstaaaaaa im so glad that you have lacy there! im glad ya'll get to be together, yes i get a lill jealous lol but, its cool. we've been through so so so much nay nay! and i dunno WHAT i would do with out you. I wish we were as close as we use to be.. but i know we can be again.. so if u want that.. cuz i know i do, then lets actually talk.. but remember.. dont, PLEASE.. dont judge nigirians.. remember, i am half nigirian.. and it really offends me.. lmao anyways playa.. UR A BEAUTIFUL BUTTER SCOTCH BLUEBERRY CHEESECAKE MUFFIN PIE! :) I love u tons nay o mee! muah! call me ho.. 1-801-627-2279 ;) i lost ur new number lol.. but member.. ask for destiney, silly. i love u much nay!

Ok, so I haven’t written in this forever! Yay! But what news shall I say…. Erm k so I went to cali.. lake tahoe, san Francisco, then l.a it was fun.. not gonna write a novel bout it tho, I met these guys in san f. they were at my hotel.. yea there were inlove with me! Haha then like when we were goin home.. we stayed one night in vegas.. yea walked the strip.. found like ten guys that wanted me.. haha but I mean, nothing special.

Friends: yea, nothing changes really. Me n nichole, still best friends..ohhhhh myyyyyyyy god! Haha one night we(nichole maddy and gavin) met at romer park.. it was so fun.. we just chilled.. until like 6 a.m and talked! Then the next night we’re like k lets doin it again.. so it was.. me, maddy, nichole, jeb, mike, gavin, seve, landon,Jeremy, matt.. and someone else. I cant member:\ but it was soooooooooo much fun! Gavin was kinda sad tho.. so it sucked.. but, we need to do it again.. um.. then its kinda been just hangin out ever since.. I haven’t heard from savannah, sucks. But oh well.. me and ree don’t talk much.. im not really home, and she has school.. oh I just filled out all my papers to register for school too.. sucks huh? I don’t wanna go to school!

Family: reeeeeeee and Bronson are coming in august! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSUH! Im seriously so excited.. haha we’re all still sad.. like I go to brendas.. and I can tell she jus isn’t happy.. and my mom is sooooo depressed.. I feel bad. Danny got laid off his job too.. so that sucks.. oh and dan e. is gonna be deployed to iraq! Sucks huh? Oh ahha.. tyler steincoft.. yea well.. my lil cousins next door neighbor? Hot right.. well the girls told him I wanted him.. and I wanted to date him.. lmao but that’s not how it is.. I jus think hes hot.. but so hes like oh yea? I forgot what she looks like.. so she shows her a picture.. and hes like “yea I like her too” lmao funny crap huh? Yea.. but the other weekend we all went campin..i know.. me, camping? Lol it was cool tho.. I played with all the boys!!! We went on a walk.. and it was SO cute.. they all were picking flowers for me.. and t.j gave me a hug and was like I love u and ill miss u! I was like aww! My lil boys! So we just walked.. then we came back and they all left.. cept jeb.. and me and him were playin cards.. then dan and cindi came.. so me, brody, and jeb was playin b.s.. yea *brushes shoulders off* im pro! So well, I hate campin.. so I  just kinda left th e next day with jenn haha so yay!

Guys:

So well.. last night I get online.. and just leave and go out side haha come back, and guess whos on? SCOTTLYN! Yea.. I was even more excited then u were lol oh my hell guys… wow.. haha so we talked.. and I was in  not a very happy mood before..but he just made me happy, I seriously was sooooooooo excited! Ughh.. but course he made fun of me.. and I was soooo happy bout it..lmao I was like YESSSS im fucking retarded! Lol but then, omg.. there was this moth.. well I think it’s a bat but my mom is DETERMINED it’s a moth..(crayzee lady) but it was huge.. and I thought it was a good idea to flick it with a pen.. into a piece of paper, so I did.. but I didn’t member that it flies lol so it just flew at my face:( but I planned on just telling him like while we were talking that I loved him like UNBELIEVABLY! So my mom says.. go take frankie potty.. so I say brb.. get back and he said brb.. so I just stayed on:\ and waited forever.. and he didn’t.. :( so I just left.. well I emailed him first.. and while I was e-mail him the bat came back.. :( scared the shit outta me! But yea… so I miss him already.. it sucks cuz just talking to him I want even more.. and he prolly wont get on.. but knowin me ill get on anyways to see if hes on lol :( anyways… no other boys… just kind of chilling, oh.. haha I found out that devon is engaged.. to taylor! So congratz dev! Im happy for you homes. Oh, and I’ve been talking to koda.. haha hes hilarious.. oh, annnnnd I talked to Brandon one night.. and he was drunk.. then like2 hours into our convo hes like, I love you brook.. im like no u don’t.. so we were fightin for like an hour.. and im like im not gonna believe you.. ur drunk.. tomorrow u wont even remember.. hes like k watch.. so the next day yea, still remembers now hes pissed at me cuz I didn’t believe him, but truthfully.. I don’t give a shit.. lol he called me a bitch like 20 times and kept sayin fuck you, no way in hell ill ever be nice to him again. So, yea no guys.. cept scott :\ oh, and I haven’t talked to damon forever.. and I really don’t care anymore either.. Im over it lol

Hmm.. maddy has to work all week:( sucks.. 

Omg I miss susan so much.. we had so much fun lol.. the whole Wilson thing..lmao.. “mmm damn.. ohhh I want that.. mm yes bend over” lol then “um hi, this is vagina penis( said like. Va jeana penn is..lmao”  holly shit I love her.. :( im gonna miss her the most.. how shed take my shit.. then book it.. and I’d chase her all in the halls before 7^th period lol I miss manda too..:( shes so funny.. she came and saw me the day before she moved..

”carmaaaaaaa” lol

oh, I haven’t told my dream lmao.. I had a dream I was in new york.. and at this restaurant with nichole and maddy and we were sitten on a bench.. then like.. this guy walked by.. and I was all DAMN I WANNA TAP THAT.. but I was just kidden.. cuz he was ugly.. summin id do, right? Lol.. so he comes over and gives me like a stuffed animal puppy.. for free lol and hes like, my mom will be over and u have to sign the papers..lmao so his mom turned out to be charity cordova.. lmao.. so then after that we go into the restaurant.. and we got our food.. and scott appeared..outta no where lol and  I couldn’t figure out if it was corn or if it was bread(what I had) lol and I was like please try it scott, and he wouldn’t.. and I was so pissed off.. cuz I didn’t know what the hell it was and he wouldn’t try it.. n that was the end.. crayzee huh? I dunno why I didn’t just.. try it lol but oh yea haha scott had a dream about me..lmao we like went to walmart.. haha hes so funny damn, I love himL haha oh shit chelsi’s on.. I gotta go lol.

MUAH! Bubi

Love, brooky

Ok so.. on Friday I woke up..went to see ree with nichole.. we went to the hospital to see my g’ma.. and I gave her a kiss and she said “I love you des” so.. I held her hand.. along with ree.. and we just watched her.. she smiled at us and just talked to us about whats going on.. after that we left.. went to a movie.. hung out.. blah blah..  my g’pa comes to pick us up and tells us that theyre gonna take her home.. and the dr. said they wont do chemo anymore.. and that’s he has about.. couple weeks to a month.. so deb decided shed come.. everyone was here cept Sharon.. then we chilled at dan and cindi’s house on Friday night.. woke up Saturday went to g’mas.. and saw everybody.. (my gandma was coming home.. hospice like sets up a hospital bed and yea..) so I walked in.. expecting to see my g’ma and kiss her and tell her I love her.. and her know that it was me.. or even be aware someone was there… but she didn’t… she was totally asleep… in pain.. so I just had to leave.. me and bron and jeb went to ross.. shopped.. then went back and then headed over to pats house.. we chilled over there.. I was having so much fun.. for once in the whole day I was happy.. I was laughing.. and staring at JT..lol at bitching at Jessica.. so.. we(me, ree, and bron) head back over to g’mas.. get our stuff the go to my house.. It was about one a.m.. and yea.. we all left.. deb was pose to stay up with g’ma then Carolyn at like 5.. then my mom come over at like 8.. so.. we all leave.. go to my house.. talk.. get ready for bed.. I go to the bathroom at bout 1:28.. get out.. 1:30.. phone rings.. I pick it up and tims like talking to my mom and says “grandma just died…” I get off the phone and tell Bronson, ree, and brit.. we all sat and bawled..  my mom comes up and says ill call u when I get there and tell u when to come over.. so we waited…. I mentioned that we say a prayer..(me, of all people.)..so me,ree, brit, and bron did… I get a call from shane saying.. shes still alive… but come over here and say good bye.. so we rushed over there… it was bout 2.. everyone was there except, Sharon.. her family(theyre in texas) zack(American fork) cody and pat(at theyre house.. not answerin theyre phones)

So… we all sat in the living room… and just cried… and sang and.. just watched her... my mom went to go have one of the little kids kiss her.. and they looked at her and she was dead…no pulse… my aunt marie is a nurse so she looked.. and yea…. No pulse.. that’s when everyone realized.. shes gone…3:07 a.m  may 30. so we all bursted…. It was like the worst thing… we all said a prayer.. and I have to tell you… I hate churchy/god things.. but that’s the best I have ever felt.. im not joking you.. Carolyn told us to go get cody and pat.. tell them then go get cliff and jake and bring them here.. so we did… we came back and just talked with everyone..everyone left around 4:45.. but my family and ree left around.. 5:30.. so.. we got home and I didn’t go to bed till bout..7:30.. I couldn’t.. I was so tired but I coulded…I woke up again at 8 for bout 30 mins.. then woke up at 10.. so im drained from crying.. and no sleep.. my family is the most important thing in my life.. you really don’t know.. my grandma was the one where I could just be so down on my self.. and go to her house and I wouldn’t tell her.. but shed know I wasn’t happy.. and i just felt hatred with my self.. and shed tell me how beautiful I was.. she was my moms life.. this is so hard… then I read these notes from baylee(6) kelsie(10) and the put on the envelop.. “grandpa.. read these to grandma” and so I read them.. and it was saying how much they love her.. and baylee put that her heart is worried.. its so hard.. once I stop crying.. it replays in my head.. just my mom saying.. her pulse stopped.. the viewing is weds.. funeral thurs..everyone in our family will be there.. which im so glad that’s how its going..

So.. what.. lost my dad at 9.. lost my g’ma at 11.. lost my aunt at 12.. and lost my g’ma at 14.. if anything happens to my mom… u wont understand…u’ll just have to gun me down… shes my best friend… ugh..

So… weds I get my braces off.. Friday im getting my hair cut.. and dyed..Saturday its my birthday… and im sure no one will really remember… but yea..

Im out…bye

Hey people! Whats goin on? Me nothin really..chillen at home alone and sick.. Yesterday was the blink 182, takin back Sunday, and cypress hill concert.. i woke up..sick as hell.. went to school..bein sick as HELL! Then me and chel got to my house.. did our hair..blah blah.. then at 5 we headed to slc.. and got in the e center.. god  u don’t even know.. it was SPECTACULAR! lol at first I was still feelin sick.. like during tbs..ten cypress hill came on..and I got a lil better.. but like cypress hill had this huge ass Buda blow up thing on theyre stage.. and It had a marijuana plant on it haha.. and he was like..gettin high while singin to us..lmao but yea..the drummer.. omg u have no clue.. he was AWESOME! So then blink came out.. they were tight as hell of course..and that’s when I got better I started jumpin more.. screamin.. like every one there was getting high.. and It was awesome.. I got like the biggest secondary high ever lol.. I miss it..but yea.. so blink was way good..they played adams song =D loved it.. they were so fuckin good.. they were bein funny too.. then marks all “k this is our last song…” and like everyone was like screaming..and shit and so tom is all “tell em the truth” and so marks all “well.. ok we’re gonna pretend like its our last..then come back out and play 2 more..” so like they got off.. stage was dark..still dark in there..and ppl started leavin to get beer n shit.. and then bam.. travis pops up like in the middle of the g/a.. and is playin the drums.. he played for like 10 mins.. and I swear to god..holly shit *girl boner* lol hes so good.. I cant wait till I get my drums..lol so that was like the best of the whole thing…then they played 2 last songs.. and they were all “we love you slc!!!!! Tomorrow we’re goin to Colorado.. and we’ll say the same fuckin shit to them.. but we wont mean it.. because WE love YOUUUUUU UTAH!” and they were just freakin out..lol oh and.. I saw tom’s ass..anyways so then we’re goin out.. and me and chel get separated.. and theyre like throwin stickers out to everybody.. and like only certain ppl got em.. but I just went up to the guys throwin them.. and they gave me em..lol so yea I got like every one of em.. so anyways..me and chel are separated.. and its packed tryna get out.. and so im like surrounded by like 8 guys.. and on is like grabbin my ass.. like 3 are fuckin goin at my cooch.. one was touchin my tits.. I was so pissed.. I was like “get the fuck off me..” like screamin.. so these like two 19 yr olds like are seein it.. so they start yellin at em.. and push em n shit.. and I was like god thank you.. I was like yellin chelsi’s name.. she was clear the hell up there.. and I really though I was gonna get raped.. oh and this girl came up by me and pushed me.. and god grrr I was like push me again bitch and see what happens.. n she looked at me.. im like fuck you.. and I started goin towards her.. but chel got me..lol so it was tight as hell.. I cant wait till next year.. so then after we went to eat and stuff..got home at like 3 a.m. I knew that id be sicker the next day.. but god.. I am sick dood.. I slept from like 3:30 am till 5 am.. and when I woke up I was hot..but I was shakin..i had chills.. and I really felt like I was gonna die… so fuckin bad.. so I went to go pee and get a drink.. yea well I couldn’t swallow.. and I cant breathe outta my nose or mouth! It sucks… so yea im goin to the dr. tomorrow. Anyways.. but k.. u know how my mom never knew I wear thongs? That’s like all I wear.. but she dunno.. cuz she thinks theyre slutty.. so I never told her:\ so today I bend over and shes like WHATTT..lol shes like imam cut em all up.. im like NO.. she didn’t.. but yea.. she didn’t make a big deal outta it:\ so yippee..but yea..ree, cliff, bron, and jeb  come this weekend :) im so excited..anyways imam go sleep.. love u all..mwa

BLINK 182 FUCKIN ROCKS MY SOCKS! hAhA! ;D

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