i RoCk mY wOrLd =) hey people.. howwwwww is LIFE!!!! haha its ok here... STRESSFUL.. but yea.. like k.. thursday was just NOT a good day for me.. i wanted to just break downand cry.. so then im jus... talking to ree and shes all.. imcoming, so of course.. shes the one person i need right now.. so.. friday she comes.. and we watched the girls.. i held kira the whoooollle time... and just played with her.. she LOVES me.. i cant wait till i have kids.. k well i can wait, but its like... i cant wait to be done with this lifestyle.. just to be able to have a husband.. and be madly in love.. and just have my kids.. imma be the best mom:) well.. then we went to pats.. and just chilled.. had fun.. came home and well, bugged nic. then we talked till like 5... and i just, wow.. i told her SO much.. we talked bout how we both fall so easily for guys.. n we figured out that the main reason i fell for nic.. was because i missed scott.. and i dunno.. u gotta admit they kind of are alike.. scott, is a lot alot funnier.. SO much funnier... and hes i dunno.. everything:\ and im not saying i have no feeling for nic.. because i do.. a lot.. id unno if i love him... i think when someone tells me they love me.. i automatically think.. i have to love them to.. so i tell them i do:\ like with mikey and brandon... i liked mikey.. a lot.. SO freaking much... but it was like... i tried to make it so i loved him.. i just cant not... be alone.. and with brandon.. he still means a lot to me... but yea.. i dunno i just have relationship issues.. but to tell u the truth.. id erase every guy.. ever.. COMPLETELY out of my life.. to just have scott.. anyways.. she left today at 11.. sucks but im glad we got to have a sleep over! so... then i went to napolean dynamite with nichole..maddy..and brit.. it was ok i guess not as funny as i thought it would be.. but yea, so and.. i started talkin to these guys.. and they were from cali.. two were pretty hot.. but yea.. then we got pretzles! and walked around.. went in the pregnant store, just effed around hahaa..and yea.. we were kinda quite and i was jus thinkin.. we useta hang out every weekend... then bam.. i see kaylyn.. yea so i like yell her name and we all go give her a hug n stuff.. n it was weird... us 5 together.... and it wasnt normal:\ it sucks..*sigh* but oh well.. i love them all a lot. well.. I LOVE YOU ALL! muah